Giving things a go

I have now entered the phase of 2 weeks house sitting and I also undertook my Skills enhancement today at the University of Queensland Library. I am proud of achievements but can never really understand why I doubt my own abilities. Despite undertaking the Skills Enhancement and trying to get my head the early stages of writing a thesis, I was able to deliver my best in terms of the skills enhancement and see writing a thesis as a real challenge. As I write this post, I have just settled into the house sit and dealing with a dog with anti social tendencies or more so heightened anxiety. No matter what I do, this do is just coy and I just have to let it adapt the way it feels best. I was able to get it to go for a walk with me this evening so at least that is some kind of a start. I often feel afraid of life because I don't know what is ahead of me. Where am I going? Who I am? Am I being realistic in my pursuits? Such questions go over and over in my mind like a tape recorder and yet to the outside world, I exist an unknown figure. My strength is something I can rely on but are the challenges I am undertaking realistic? A friend has recently asked me to his engagement party. I feel honoured as I haven't caught up with the friend concerned in years. It makes me feel happy that at least someone bothered to include me in something special in their life. I am trying to read as much as I can but I am taking things slowly with my research as otherwise I will burn out. I know all I can do is give things my best and hope my life takes a turn for the better.